I feel love all around me..
I had a blast today..
Thank you so much for everyone..
You have no idea how happy I am:D

Thank you for all the sms-es *is there such a word?;p* and the phone calls..
Thank you for the cakes..and the surprises..
Thank you for all the emails and messages in my blog and my fs..
Thank you for the pray..
Thank you for the efforts..
Thank you for the wills..
and first and foremost, thank you for the friendship..

I feel like I'm having my second home in here..

did you know that
those 2 first songs you played last night
are the songs i played over and over everytime i miss you?

I learnt that the more I involve myself in the present,
the less I worry about my future..
end result? I fully aware of a happy feeling that's growing inside..

I realized that when I'm feeling down,
only I can pull myself out of the misery..
It's a decision away of whether to smile or to frown..
And I choose to smile..

i thought the pain in my chest was because i hadn't had my dinner..
but no it's not..
still something burden my chest..it's hard to breathe..
even if i took a deep breath, something feels like clogging inside..

haix..udah cukup gue semedi sekian lama:)
saatnya buat ngadepin diri gue dengan senyuman..

Seperti salah satu proverb Jepang:
"Ii koto ga attara, warau no de ha nakute, waratte iru kara ii koto ga aru"

Yang kalo di translate itu kurang lebih:
"We do not smile because something good has happened; rather something good happens because we smile."

I am restless..
That is how I feel for the last couple of weeks..
My mind is filled with every single thing I could possibly think of, yet I can't spill it out loudly to anyone..
Each morning I open this page in one of the tab in the browser, yet by the end of every day I couldn't write anything..
It's starting to consume from deep within..

Forgive me for not being me recently..
Thank you for everyone who's been so patient and understanding..

...watashi ha watashi tachi no tameni tsuyoi kokoromiteiru...