kembalikan hatiku
dunia tanpa cinta hambar adanya..
tapi dunia tak berhenti berputar
karena kandasnya satu cinta,
akankah ia?

engau di luar sana,
bantulah aku
agar dapat kembali merasakan
apa itu mencinta
dan dicinta

aku bukan memimpi
kisah cinta seperti cinderella,
juga bukan menginginkan
satria berbaju putih
aku hanya ingin kembali merasakan
apa yang selama ini telah hilang

tetaplah hidup...
Manusia yang berkeinginan tiada batas.
Terkadang mengharap apa yang di luar jangkauan.
Kesempurnaan…
Kesempurnaan dalam pekerjaan, pendidikan, dalam cinta..dalam diri orang lain, dan diri kita sendiri.

Adakah sejenak terbersit,
bahwa segala ketidaksempurnaan itu indah adanya.
Ketidaksempurnaan itulah yang membuat harapan terus ada,
usaha terus bergulir untuk hal-hal yang lebih indah.

Adakah kita sadari,
harapan adalah sesuatu yang mahal harganya.
Karena berhenti berharap berarti berhenti merasa,
dan berhenti merasa itu ibarat manusia tanpa nyawa.

>>PrOmOsi aLbUm<<
Renee Olstead with her self-titled album..
Huaa lagu nyaa jazzy gitu..
Nice banget..ditambah suara dia yang menurut gue rada2 sendu gitu.
Ok banget buat didengrin sore2..apalagi pas ujan trus lagi berbaring di kamar sendirian.
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Track Listing:
Summertime
What A Difference A Day Makes
Midnight At The Oasis
Sentimental Journey
Taking A Chance On Love
Is You Is Or Is You Ain`t (My Baby)
Someone To Watch Over Me - (featuring Chris Botti)
Breaking Up Is Hard To Do - (featuring Peter Cincotti)
Love That Will Last, A
Meet Me, Midnight
Sunday Kind Of Love - (featuring Chris Botti)
On A Slow Boat To China - (featuring Carol Welsman)

An Ode From A Lover
Life is so unpredictable..
Just when I thought I've had enough,
there comes another temptation to have more..
One day I say something,
the next day it can bounce back at me..
I did what I'd never wanted to do..
I said things I didn't really mean it..
And after then, I can only stay in a silence,
questioning myself, who on earth have I became?

One once told me that love hurts..
I took those words and keep them in mind,
so that I'm prepared for every possibility in a relationship.
After being through some serious yet hurting relatioship,
I came to an awareness that
it is not love that hurts me..
It is my ego and my endless desire to having more.
I became a person who didn't appreciate what I've had.
And here I am now,
in the search of how i really feel about everything.

Maybe things happened for they are to happen in my life..
Maybe I left you so that I know what it's like to have love someone..
There's no excuse for what I did, and I'm not going to give you any excuses..
For what it worths, I can only say I'm sorry..
I'm sure you have found the love of your life,
and I'm so grateful for that..

by .X.O.

Java jazz is happening...
huaaa keren bangettt...
Kemaren gue ke Trisakti bareng Nye2, Yuli, Slamet 'n Cecep..
Pas nyampe dah mulai gitu dech acaranya, tapi tetep aja
kita sempet ngeliat yang namanya Jacque Mate ama Jeff Kashiwa.
gile dechh..ga boonk keren banget.
Gue ga kebayang ntar kalo di JCC gimana yach.

Jacque Mate, trio dari indo gitu.. (kalo mo info lanjut liat aja di web nya java jazz)
Musiknya jazz yang dikit rock gitu kali yach haha
gue ga gitu ngerti dech;p yang pasti gitarisnya mantap..
kalo drummernya sich cukup enak diliat *dibaca:ganteng* haha
Dia orang bawain sekitar 2 ato 3 lagu gitu.
Ada sempet bawain lagu Jimi Hendrix yang gue ga tau judulnya;p

Moving on ke highlight of the night nya
Jeff Kashiwa beserta bandnya *yang gue ga tau sapa2 namanya*
Pas dia orang lagi sound check gitu, sempet rada2 gerimis mengundang.
Untungnya pawang ujan nya cukup ahli haha jadi ga ujan lah;p
Di tempat yang cukup kecil itu *dan memank ga terlalu padat banget2*,
bisa muat:
jeff kashiwa, 3 orang pemaen alat tiup, 1 drummer, 1 keyboardist,
1 guitaris, 1 basist dan 1 orang pemaen perkusi (apa tuh namanya? perkusist? emanknya ada? haha)
Yaa keren dch keren..
Gue dah cukup speechless, alias ga bisa mendescribe rasa terpesona gue kemaren.
Pas dah kelar, gue 'n nye2 hunting foto gitu haha
Sayang sich ga gitu jelas hasil2nnya.. hix hix
Tapi it was really really nice loh..
Yukkk dateng besok ke atma.
Ada george duke, glenn fredly dkk loh:)

Ok..gue dah lama banget ga berkisah ttg segala sesuatunya.
I've been completely lost in my own feeling and my own thinking.
The more I thought about things, the more I found myself confused with the choices I had to make.
I mean..I knew that something was not right for me..It will eventually hurt me.
However, the more people convince me that I was wrong,
the more I tried to make myself believe that it was right.
Does it make any sense? *starting to sound like someone huh:P*

For this time being, I just wanted to take sometimes alone
Trying to figure things out..
What I really want..How I really feel..

218 - "Last Looks" Closing Narration
Narrator: A heart is a fragile thing. That's why we protect them so vigorously, give them away so rarely, and why it means so much when we do. Some hearts are more fragile than others. Purer, somehow. Like crystal in a world of glass, even the way they shatter is beautiful.