Kalo ngeliat setaon ke belakang *since ini dah official 1 January 2006*,
gue bener2 ga nyangka bakal ada di posisi gue skr.
Tahun 2005 bener2 memberi gue suatu kehidupan..
Penuh banget dengan kejadian2 yang somehow give meaning to everything i've done.
Seperti layaknya kehidupan, ada saat2 yang bener2 bikin gue bahagia..
Ada juga saat2 di mana gue ngerasa putus asa..bener2 sedih..

Kalo mau dirangkum, selama tahun 2005 itu..
Gue ketemu lagi sama temen2 kecil yang tadinya dah entah di mana..
Ada yang ketemu di friendster *biasa banget*. Ada yang tiba2 berpapasan di mall. Ada juga yang ternyata skr jadi temen bae nya temen maen gue skr..

Gue dapet cukup banyak kenalan. Setelah gue pikir2..99% kenalan baru gue itu dikenalin sama Makoto. *A proper thank you is addressed to you hehe* Dan karena suatu dan lain hal nya, gue jadi deket sama salah satu kenalan baru itu.

Gue ngelakuin beberapa hal baru..Don't need to mention all of them here though. Gue belajar masak pas liburan. Akhirnya gue ngerasain maen bowling;p Yaaa simple stuff..

Gue ngerasain lagi yang namanya 'in love with someone'..Tadinya gue sempet takut kalo perasaan gue dah mati. Tapi i met someone who in a bizzare way touched my heart. A thank you wouldn't be enough to show how grateful I am to have known you. Things have changed between us, but I'm glad that it doesn't *or at least it hasn't* affect our friendship.

Gue *kembali* merasakan patah hati. Berat emank pada saat itu, tapi emank bener kata orang. Kerelaan itu bakal bikin perasaan lega. Plusss, keberadaan orang2 di sekeliling itu berarti banget. I know that it's me myself who can gain all the power to stand up again..but it's you guys who put back the confidence in me. You believed in me. And that means a lot to me. Thank you my friends..I love you..

Gue akhirnya bisa ngerasain liburan keluarga ke Bali. It's something that I've longed for a long time..It was a precious time..

Gue menata ulank kembali prioritas2 dalam hidup gue. I am still working on that. I guess in some point, I am afraid to make plans. Sekarang ini semua rencana dan prioritas dalam hidup gue, dah ga bisa lagi cuman buat gue. I'm not going into details, at least not for now hehe

Yaa..itu sekilas highlight kejadian2 di tahun 2005 lalu..
Ho ho ho...
Merry X'Mas everyone...

~Don't Save It All For X'Mas Day~
Don't get so busy that you miss
Giving just a little kiss
To the ones you love
Don't even wait a little while
To give them a little smile
A little is enough

How many people are crying
People are dying...
How many people are asking for love

Don't save it all for Christmas Day
Find a way
To give a little love everyday
Don't save it all for Christmas Day
Find your way
Cause holidays have come and gone
But love lives on
If you give on
Love...

How could you wait another minute
A hug is warmer when you're in it
And Baby that's a fact
And saying "I love you's" always better
Seasons, reasons, they don't matter
So don't hold back
How many people in this world
So needful in this world
How many people are praying for love

Don't save it all for Christmas Day
Find a way
To give a little love everyday
Don't save it all for Christmas Day
Find your way
Cause holidays have come and gone
But love lives on
If you give on
Love...

Let all the children know
Everywhere that they go
Their whole life long
Let them know love

Don't save it all for Christmas Day
Find a way
To give a little love everyday
Don't save it all for Christmas Day
Find your way
Cause holidays have come and gone
But love lives on
If you give on
Love...
Love...
Udah beberapa hari ini gue bangun di pagi hari dan tersenyum..
*bukan berarti gue mulai mengalami gangguan kejiwaan ato apa loh*
Kalo kata pepatah, habis gelap terbitlah terang..

Yuppe yuppe..this is it hehe
Natal dah deket, taon baru jugaa..
Sahabat2 dari melb dah pada balik di sini..
Entah mengapa, gue ngerasa lega banget juga...
Beban2 pikiran dah mulai ilank *kecuali tentu nya pikiran soal skripsi huhuhu*
Truss apa yach...
Perlahan2 gue dah bisa menata rencana2 gue buat ke depan nya..
Love is in the air..
I feel like I finally find my way back home:)

Tadi abis makan2 di ultah temen..
Truss pas lagi di mobil perjalanan pulank..
Gue ngeliat ke kursi belakang dan kursi depan..
I took a deep breathe and say
"I feel lucky.."

Gimana ga..
Mereka itu adalah orang2 yang udah menemani gue selama hampir 10 tahun..
Mereka tau perkembangan gue dari jaman2 smp dulu..
Tau hampir semua tipe rambut yang pernah gue coba,
tau kalo udah jam 10 malam biasa gue dicariin orang rumah;p,
tau hampir semua cerita2 gue selama ini..
tau what to do kalo gue lagi sedih..
tau macem2 dech...
With them I feel home..
I feel a sincere love..No need to hide the real me nor to feel afraid that they will forever hate me if i made a mistake..

Thank you so much..